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17 April 2009 @ 05:26 pm
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The Best Thing about today was when Bear told me he was proud of me for standing by my convictions. That meant a super lot to me, mostly because I feel like elsewhere, standing by my convictions isn't going to do much for anyone. So it's nice to know that Bear is proud of me. And who knows, maybe I'll be surprised what standing by my conviction accomplishes. (I'll at least have an extra $3.50 to spend each month. :p)

And with that said, this is my farewell post to my Life As A Paying LJ Customer. I will continue to use the service via a new journal (temporarily, as I hope to join the dreamwidth team when they get into beta testing) but I have decided not to continue supporting LiveJournal financially. I understand the arguments made for layoffs in the business world, but the more I read from people who are closer to the inside of the layoffs, the less I feel "right" about being an LJ customer. It makes me feel like I'm siding with the enemy. To my friends who have paid accounts and who will continue to have them: please know that I in NO WAY frown down or judge or anything like that! This is my own personal conviction and I am not expecting anyone else to agree with it. I'm sure I'm in the minority and as such, I'm sure LJ will not even be impacted in the grand scheme of things. But in my little world, I believe I'm doing the right thing and I feel MUCH better for it. :)

If you would like to continue following me, comment on this entry and I'll add you to my new journal.

Mood: resolved
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09 January 2009 @ 11:48 am
...that I was a cold, callous person. *sigh* Actually, I don't know that that's entirely true. I don't know if I genuinely wish that I was cold and callous - that's a knee jerk response to feeling empathic and the pain that can come with it. So...I think it'd be more accurate to say that I wish being empathic was less painful. Saying I wish I were cold and callous is just my way of articulating that the pain of empathy SUCKS.

I was starting to come around to "the world's way of thinking" as far as layoffs and downsizing and restructuring go. (The italics = sarcastic emphasis.) But I've done more reading and some of it has been personal writings by the people who are affected by this whole thing and I'm kind of back at square one. A lot of people make a good argument for the fact that when a business is downsizing, they usually can't afford severance and there's a security risk in giving advance notice and MAYBE that really is the way it has to be. But maybe it's not. And either way, I'm not sure I want to support a company with my money who treats their employees this way.

If you know me at all, then you know why it's a hard pill for me to swallow (the whole "this is just the way it is" argument). If you don't know me, (and most of my LJ friends DON'T truly "know" me in the sense that I mean "know" - thus, the following) here's why:
  • I'm an idealist. I believe in doing as much the best thing as possible for all involved, whether you're a business or an individual. I also believe that what goes around, comes around - whether you're a business or an individual. So to me, it seems unintelligent and foolish to treat others so badly, REGARDLESS of the "business sense" behind it. If LJ really and truly could not afford any kind of severance pay, then yes, they did what they had to do in the interest of self-preservation. I find it extremely difficult to believe that they couldn't afford to pay 12 people some kind of severance. 
  • I'm a Christian. I have a really hard time separating my own personal ethics and morals from "how the rest of the world should and will behave". On one level, I understand that if someone doesn't share my values, they are not going to act as I think they should act. But on some OTHER level, I still insist on imposing my values on other people's actions. For example, a company is rarely a "christian" entity and therefore, will not act on Christian values. (Chick Fil-A is one of the rare ones and I'm not sure they would even handle layoffs according to Christian principles vs business principles.) Nevertheless, I continue to hold companies to my own values and pass judgement on them when they don't. (i.e. Abercrombie & Fitch's promotion of pornography and teenage sex.) I don't do this with INDIVIDUALS - just companies. I have several friends who live in direct contradiction to my personal beliefs and moral system but I love them and LIKE them and continue spending time with them.Why do I treat companies differently? I don't know. This is an interesting revelation I've just had about myself and I'll have to think on it further.
And that pretty much derailed where I was going with all of this. Yes, it's a hard pill to swallow but maybe that pill is self-inflicted because I'm trying to make a square block fit into a round hole.

Where is the line drawn when it comes to supporting a company who acts in line with your values? If I held every company to the standards I hold myself to, there would likely be a LOT of places I couldn't shop. As a Christian, am I supposed to hold companies to my values? SHOULD I be withdrawing my support when they act unethically? Or should I only be holding Christian companies to my Christian values?

This is not for you. This is for me. You're certainly welcome to comment with your own opinion but ultimately, this is something I have to figure out for myself.

It's interesting all the different ways our lives impact each other. All of this is "just because" a corporation that I purchase services from has acted in a way that I think is inappropriate and unfair. *sigh* Can I just have a little break from growing up? Would I really regress THAT much if I could stop growing up for just a few days?

I don't care that I sound whiny - but I'm so not in the mood to be evaluating all of this and figuring out where I stand. I'd really like to just sit down for a while.

Mood: irritated
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08 January 2009 @ 09:16 pm
The Best Thing about today was...making pork chops super easily and Bear totally loving them. I don't really understand why but it's quite satisfying when he finds what I've cooked to be pleasing. :)
Mood: satisfied
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08 January 2009 @ 03:11 pm
There was a post here...I don't know how many of you saw it (I know somewhatlacking and moredetails saw it. It's been Privatized for now because I might have been too rash.)

Here's the nutshell version: LiveJournal laid off some folks in a not-so-nice way. Part of me is loathe to continue my paid account status because I don't like supporting companies that treat their employees so poorly (and they've treated their customers poorly too). Part of me loves the service and my friends here and I don't want to leave. My conscience is eating me up.

What are your thoughts and opinions on the whole mess? moredetails , I know we had conversation about this on the other post, but feel free to "repeat" yourself here if you like.

I told somewhatlacking that I have a tendency to complicate things, especially when it comes to morality. I'm going to discuss this with Bear tonight and get his input too but I'm counting on the rest of you to hopefully round out my view a little bit - in case I am being too rash/morally influenced/whatever term you want to put to it. ;)

Edit: Have since read this article: http://news.cnet.com/8301-13577_3-10132684-36.html It claims that the above article listed "exaggerated numbers" for the layoffs and that layoffs actually amounted to a dozen people, making up a fifth of the company...

Mood: unsure